Mainly because I've become absolutely obsessed with tumblr.
But I've gotten your comments and I thank you for them!
So. What to talk about.
Oh! Well for one thing I finally got a job!!!!!!!!
It's at Culver's, which is this neat chain of burger/frozen custard joints. The food there is excellent and I am excited to be working there!!
Also on Thursday I have a job interview for Sears, so hopefully I can get both jobs fully up and running. Oh to have money and a bank account again!!
I've been reading more lately!
L. M. Montgomery makes me cry so much, especially in the later books, when we meet Walter. I don't know what it is about that name but I love it so much; every literary character named Walter I adore, and least the ones I've met so far.
I believe you meet and absorb so much more than others believe. I think you can roll around in bed with a song and confess secrets to characters in books or movies. I believe that the stars above are ethereal beings of wisdom. I don't care what the scientists say, they are, and Caspian married one.
The main point of this being that I forgot how good books are to me. And Anne Shirley is probably one of my favorite ladies ever (aside from Ms. Gaga!). I can daydream on my own and not feel silly. I can speak in the tongue of purple prose and ignore those who would look down their noses at me for it.
Screw a semblance of normality, I'll take eaves dripping with faerie dust as the echoes of childhood call across valleys.
That's another thing--I forgot how to look at things. Observing them with the right mindset is half the point of telling a successful story. And we should enjoy the nature we have left.
I need to gain self-discipline again, control the parts of my mind that affect the mishaps in my life.
Statusi specifica--stop thinking about things that would never actually help me. aka...the boy.
Love is important, but I'm not ready and there's a part of me that knows deep down that it's not going to happen.
I do want something, though. Not necessarily from him, but from someone nice. I wonder if I could have a one-night kiss. Nothing sexual, just something wonderful for me to sigh about later.
I'm going to improve my vocabulary. This tumblr-speak thing has to stop.
Sometimes I feel like I should go off the grid for a bit.
God, if I could. In a year I'll make my move, even if it's just traveling across the USA for a month. I don't want to feel so ashamed about not being so "caught up" with normal people. So I let it slack that I didn't get a permit until I was 19, so I've only had one job for 9 months a year ago. So I sucked at school and didn't go to college.
Fuck all of that. I am going to believe that there is a higher purpose for me again, and that all of my laziness is going to be for a reason, now that I'm deciding not to be lazy. That everything will end up being good and maybe even wonderful.
congratulations on the job.
ReplyDeletei hope you get the second one too :)
Montgomery is amazing.